The Resolution

I find it good for my first post to be the speech i made at my local church after watching courageous the movie. it left no stone unturned in my life. 

good morning i commerced.
i have lived to see what faithlessness to the heart of children but more specifically, the effect it has done on my life. 
my parents divorced three months after i was conceived and dad died two years after i was born.
for those of you who still have fathers, you have no glimpse of how empty a child becomes after losing a father.
My mother has from then sacrificed her life for my survival,
i praise God for her.
she has worked the whole of her life to make me a man but all she could make me was a lady she was.
Where was the father? she is not meant to carry the burden alone.
Because of the decisions he had mad in the past, he could not  live after i was two years of age.
From all that, i have two options,

to use my fathers failures as a stumbling block where i too will fall or to use it as a stepping stone under my feet where i will reach greater heights.
In my life the decision has already been made. that's no longer a question.
that regardless of what my father did not give me or do for me,
i will give the strength of my arms to love and protect my family.                                                            
I will love my dad he gave me the best he had which was his one spam that makes me live today.
our fathers wanted a change in the communities and families they live in but they either didn't know how to do it or they procrastinated the idea and the responsibility.
they did, i will not.

i will not miss the opportunity of leaving a godly legacy for the next generation.
there are some people out there who because of the mistakes they have made in the past think its too late.
you know what friend, his grace is sufficient, for his power is made perfect in our weakness. 2 Corinthians 12 : 9 
 as a young man you don't need to first get there then figure of what to do.
its time we embraced the vision of manhood and fatherhood now, there is no time for waiting.
for as a man you are fully accountable to God for the power of influence he has given you in your home.
some men will discourage us and say; wait until you get there.
but i say NO, there is a common standard that judges both the married and singles,
one God who works with in the married and singles, one bible, one God, and it is in him we ulcer our faith and trust.

Now when i hear the old men telling of heroes, 
telling of great deeds of ancient days, 
then i think with in me..... i too am one of them.
i too when the time comes shall do mighty. 
and you know what; this is the time. there is no better time than now.

Why the WHY ME?

Kiggundu Wilson. some of you if not all have ever asked yourself, if not God. why me? this is the question that i used to ask my self a lot if not now. through the suffering that i went through as a result of my dad's death due to the bad choices he had made in the early days of his life. life was not easy, it wasn't smooth, it was not ice cream on a hot day not a hot bath on a cold night, friends, it was worse the opposite of that. growing up without a father figure in my life, no person to look at as a model gave me no ground to put my feet. my step father instead of showing me the good side of fatherhood showed me the opposite, instead of becoming a man in my life i desired, in those infant days he was my worst night mare. life then was ice cream in snow, a hot bath in the Sahara. i need one who would help the situation but the more i looked for one the more i was hurt, the i desired less of befriending me, the more i closed my hurt.

Mom realised there was no one around to build my manhood so embraced the responsibility, i love my mom, she sacrificed all she had to make me a man she desired me to be but could not go further than making me a perfect lady that she was, she tried. where was dad? i hate to think about the question. 

well, going through all that , which human being would not ask "WHY ME" other children seemed to have all they needed except me, why not me? i used it in comparison of other people which was great just that it was with a negative attitude. you never know the reason behind the now until you have have passed through it, i can now see the shadow of why God intended all that to happen to me. i now ask Him. Lord why me you have loved redeemed, forgiven, adopted and promised inheritance?. Ephesians 1. i now ask it with an attitude of gratitude. some times i think am God's best but you also are. its for this reason i have my blog tittle. WHY ME?