Kiggundu Wilson. some of you if not all have ever asked yourself, if not God. why me? this is the question that i used to ask my self a lot if not now. through the suffering that i went through as a result of my dad's death due to the bad choices he had made in the early days of his life. life was not easy, it wasn't smooth, it was not ice cream on a hot day not a hot bath on a cold night, friends, it was worse the opposite of that. growing up without a father figure in my life, no person to look at as a model gave me no ground to put my feet. my step father instead of showing me the good side of fatherhood showed me the opposite, instead of becoming a man in my life i desired, in those infant days he was my worst night mare. life then was ice cream in snow, a hot bath in the Sahara. i need one who would help the situation but the more i looked for one the more i was hurt, the i desired less of befriending me, the more i closed my hurt.
Mom realised there was no one around to build my manhood so embraced the responsibility, i love my mom, she sacrificed all she had to make me a man she desired me to be but could not go further than making me a perfect lady that she was, she tried. where was dad? i hate to think about the question.
well, going through all that , which human being would not ask "WHY ME" other children seemed to have all they needed except me, why not me? i used it in comparison of other people which was great just that it was with a negative attitude. you never know the reason behind the now until you have have passed through it, i can now see the shadow of why God intended all that to happen to me. i now ask Him. Lord why me you have loved redeemed, forgiven, adopted and promised inheritance?. Ephesians 1. i now ask it with an attitude of gratitude. some times i think am God's best but you also are. its for this reason i have my blog tittle. WHY ME?
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